I’ll probably have a sort of risotto - rice with mushrooms, chicken, prawns, onions, water chestnuts and anything else I can think of to chuck into it including chilli. I’ll probably make enough to last two days. I like a good mix up.
So very very “naughty”
Sausage, chips and beans and it was lovely
After a ten hour shift in work in todays heat, not only was it quick, I really needed it so sod the cholesterol , the salt, the everything 
A bit of what you fancy does you no harm.
I cooked a Chicken Curry, Rice and Veg. Spring Roll.
I think I’m getting bored with food. I’ll go to eat something, thinking how yummy it looks, and then tire of it halfway through. In fact, I think I’m just bored with everything. I sleep any chance I get and I have no motivation whatsoever.
Linda, a chat with a doctor wouldn’t do you any harm
I’ve talked to my doctor about it. Just had an appointment (for a regular checkup) with her a couple of weeks ago. She asked me if I wanted to try a mild anti-depressant, but I declined. I’ve been on those drugs before and I had horrible side-effects to them and coming back down off of them was a nightmare.
It’s just… I don’t know. Everyday things I used to enjoy doing all just seem so monotonous now.
That’s ashame Linda, perhaps you are run down. Don’t get Anti-depressants they are useless and addictive. Perhaps its just the warm weather.
Today we are having:
Cajan spicy Chicken Breasts, R. Potatoes, Baked Onion, Cabbage, Swede.
Linda. Talking therapy might be of use to you. Can you get a referral to a counselor at all ?
Low grade depression can lead to full on depression if not treated
Trust me, girls, I’ve been there and done all of that. Anti-depressants, therapy, etc. I had bad anxiety about 10 years ago. I was having panic attacks, was on 2 types of medications, ended up in the emergency room because I thought I was dying… I’ve been down that road already. And while my anxiety is better (even though I’m still on one medication to control it) I still get down about things and I worry constantly. About everything. My brain never shuts off and there are days it drives me crazy. And yes, in case anyone is wondering, I’ve tried the meditation thing too. It’s like my body is resistant to relaxation. Even though I feel tired most of the time, I never sleep through a whole night undisturbed. It’s this damn brain of mine. It won’t give me any peace.
Oh well, enough of that nonsense. I’m working today, so I think I’ll just take Lean Cuisine (frozen meal). I really don’t worry about what I eat anymore. I think I’ve given up that fight, too. But I keep those meals around for something quick to grab on my way out the door (to a job I’ve been working 10 years that I’ve grown to despise) when I don’t have anything else accessible enough to take with me.
Evening all.
Today we had:
Smoked Haddock, Boiled potato, Cauliflower Cheese and Mushrooms.
Linda, I think you have a handle on whats happening with you, well done for acknowledging that and knowing what will help
I listen to Radio Two here in England and they have a wonderful series about what makes you human
Todays speaker was Marion Keyes, an Irish Author who has suffered severe depression. Listening to her was wonderful as she never shied away from the goriness of depression. She admitted she had tried everything that was offered or suggested and the only thing that got her out from it was time
I don’t know if you can find a pod cast of the show, it was the Jeremy Vine show on radio two today, its worth a listen I think
I don’t know if I have a handle on it or not. Nothing makes sense to me anymore and and what you’re supposed to do as opposed to what you want to do are two different things.
That’s very true, that time is the only thing, really, that takes care of things. It doesn’t necessarily always “heal”, but it changes things enough to make them tolerable. And, in some cases, one can only hope for something like that.
One thing I do know is that life has a way of working itself out, one way or another. I tell myself that a lot, as well as telling myself that ‘this too shall pass’ and that’s what keeps me going. That and my son. If it weren’t for my baby, I really wouldn’t have any purpose.
He is my reason for living.
Morning all.
Today its:
BQ Chicken pieces and Salad.
Chicken salad here as well
The weather is so muggy at the moment that standing in the kitchen cooking is no fun
A wrap and some watermelon for me today.
And hey, do any of you have a nice recipe for cauliflower cheese? A couple of you have talked about it and I’m just curious how you make it and what type of cheese you use. I LOVE cauliflower (I’ll even eat it raw) and would like a great recipe for cauliflower cheese, if you please 
Linda, I just start with a basic all in one white sauce and I’m afraid I don’t measure So about a tablespoon of butter, all purpose flour and around 1/2 pint of milk, in a pan, bring to a slow boil whisking all the time till right consistency. Then as much cheddar as needed to taste with a teaspoon of English mustard, pepper and salt to taste
Pour over cooked cauliflower and into the oven till all hot and bubbly
Depending on who’s here, I like to give it a topping of fresh bread dumbs and grated Parmesan before I put in the oven for a nice bit of crunch
I also sometimes use Stilton or any other small off cuts of cheese lying in the fridge
I make my Cauliflower cheese exactly the same as Missy.
The English Mustard gives it just a little bit of a kick.
Todays its Chicken Curry and Rice.
Thanks, girls
I don’t measure when I make a white sauce either. I just sort of wing it until I have the right amount and the right consistency.
When you say mustard, do you mean dry mustard or prepared mustard? I may use a bit of dry, but I don’t think I’d enjoy prepared mustard in it (although who knows, maybe I would) especially if it’s spicy. The man of the house here loves Colman’s, that’s the only mustard he’ll eat when he wants mustard with a kick. But I personally don’t like it. It reminds me of those hot mustard packets you get with Chinese takeaway.
Whatever the case, I’m going to try this. Probably without the mustard, though.
either dry or made
Its Colmans I use, you just need a tiny amount, you won’t taste it, it just gives a wee depth of flavour and just gives a little tinge of yellow to the sauce. I find an American yellow mustard is too vinegary for a sauce