Should I not take the Zopiclone, then? This is one of the dangers of the internet.
I would double check with the out of hours GP Dreamy.
I am soooo proud of you Richard, you will never know how much. Yes, I am 3,000 miles away, praying for youā¦and I have passed on a prayer request to the prayer chain, and by tonight, you will be more than half way around the worldā¦
This prayer was special ābecauseā you requested it. That means so much, and the Angels in Heaven are writing down your name in The Lambs book of lifeā¦and singing with joy as they repeat your name Richardā¦
Richard, you will get a lot of āhard knocksā from some for admitting you are a Christian, but that is ok as your reward will come some dayā¦
You are such a good man Richard, saying you will pray for all Cancer sufferers, that is wonderful, it mean so much. It tells me āwho you are, in Christāā¦You are my brother in the Lordā¦and you are on the same road I am onā¦if you ever get feeling down------------
just grab my hand, walk with me for a whileā¦Jesus will build you up and me with you.
Blue xxx
I am weak also, as I have an incurable illness, but I donāt want to get better, I want to leave now. I am tired and alone now. I have lived a great life. I keep hoping I will go in my sleepā¦but you dear friend, are only 52. I think God may have some work for youā¦
Dear Father, Richard is waiting for you to fill him with the Holy Spirit. I say Amen to that, and thank you Jesus, our comforter.
Talk to you soon Richard, you have a lot of lovely friends on here who are all rooting for you and they want to see you āwell againā.
I took the tablet and was fine
I am glad you are ok. X
Good sleep?
Better than I thought. 2 Mental Health specialists were at my house for me, at 10:30 laying out all the options for me. I thought it was thoughtful of the consultant and not to leave me high and dry.
There are plenty of organisations to help me at night, which is very reassuring.
At last some support for you Dreamy. xxx
I am glad that is in place.
Now, do you know when the biopsy will be done?
No, I think itās too soon to tell; I should find out next week. I donāt fancy groin surgery but if thatās what it takes then so be it.
Sorry, try not to worry. X
I am glad you had a good sleep.
Any plans for today?
Watching TV on and off. I say āoffā because I kept dropping off to sleep and dreaming. Not good dreams, either.
Itās strange, but when I wake up I still believe whatever was in the dream for a few minutes. Just my mind playing tricks on me but disconcerting none the less.
Iām back to that situation whereby I donāt know the day and date for a while. Iāve got 6 watches and reset them all but that doesnāt last long ie. theyāll all be out of sync within half an hour. So, I presume theyāre showing the correct time and itās just my mind deceiving me.
I think it is most likely the side effects of the meds Dreamy.
It is Friday now.
I hope you can get the biopsy of the lymph nodes done sooner that later. The more you know, the less you will worry. It seems to me that your physicians are being most conscientious, and that you are getting support from your mental health team - with options.
Closer to home, you might want to choose just a couple of your favorite, most reliable watches and put the others away until you get past the day/time confusion. Simplify, simplify.
Howās your eating and strength?
Iām eating more but donāt really feel much stronger.
Is your appetite normal Dreamy?
I wouldnāt say normal in the sense that there are very few foods I want to eat, yogurt, apples cereal etc. but Iāve had nothing hot for days.
Iām scared Iāll lose my mind completely; when I saw you had written today is Friday I didnāt recognise that you posted it yesterday for a good few seconds.
Itās common for people to forget the day and date with the festivities but my problems go far deeper hence my watches thread. I find Iām having to complete things basic and not quite managing because of my memory.
I did buy a new vaper today; I seem to go through them at some rate but couldnāt face not vaping, a bit like a smoker would be. It was a specialist shop and I patted myself on the back for getting there and back.
My sleep has improved a bit and not every night comes fraught with terror. I think my temperature has gone back to normal.
If only my memory were normal, plus I had some reassurance about the nightmares and illusions, I think I would be OK for now.
It interrupts my normal activities. Iāll put my headphones on but not really enjoy the songs, same with reading. So Iām reduced to watching rubbish TV.
Which really is rubbish. But I did manage to get out twice today: once to the supermarket, which really took it out of me.Then later on to the vape shop as I needed a new vaper. My old one had broken down (2 weeks that lasted me).
But Iām not back to anything like good or even decent health. I am honestly waiting to see what breaks down next. The memory issues, while disabling, are only really a side issue Askrigg Iām terrified of getting Delirium again. That can be really nasty.
Iām not even sure why im writing this, boredom perhaps.
Oh, dear Dreamy. At least you are eating. one thing at a time.
Try keeping a diary of how you are feeling Dreamy.
Most TV is rubbish. Try the silly Christmas channel, it may make you laugh.
Sorry I have not been here to support you enough Dreamy.
You are all in a muddle with both your illness and the festive period. Even I had to think today, oh yes New Year is soon.
I know my body has been through a lot, but the simple act of getting up and making a cup of tea exhausts me in advance.
Anyway, Iāll have to go out tomorrow or Iāll starve. Something Iāve not mentioned before is the back and neck pain (Probably from my biopsies). I find it hard to hold my head up properly and this is dangerous when outside lest I get squished by a car. My hearing is good, though. Also when I walk I find myself swaying to the left slightly.
The back pain I just accept as a constant. Itās worse during the day.
Yes, it is most likely the biopsies, but also the amount of time you have been laid up sick IMO.
It takes a lot of muscle strength to even sit upright, let alone anything else like walking.
Do take care when you go out tomorrow Dreamy. Many start drinking in the afternoon. Tomorrow is New Years Eve.