Thank you WB, I am appreciative and believe in the power of prayer. The way I feel is a world away from a couple of weeks ago.
Fingers crossed mate youâre finally on the mend at last. A week ago they told you that you had 48 hours left, so it shows you what they know doesnât it?
You have my utmost admiration as someone who against the odds has shown you can beat what is horribly thrown at you and this thread alone should be an inspiration to others who are going through similar hard times with severe illness and reading through it will give them patience and positivity for their recuperation.
I know you still have some hurdles to jump, Ffosse, but part of the battle is knowing you have those everyday things back again which you carry out at your own pace and leisure. No need to rush anything. A short walk to the shops, a longer walk next time and so on.
Weâre all behind you mate, keep it going 
fFosse, just because I donât post on here much doesnât mean I donât care.
Youâre amazingly resilient given what youâve been put through.
The main thing is to keep warm and pace yourselfâŠbut you know yourself pretty well and seem ok in that respect.
And never turn down an offer of help!
Iâm wondering if your kind neighbour could get you some of those meals/drinks called Build Up or Fortisip or Complan, when you need sustenance but donât feel like food.
But theyâre all available online so you could have them delivered.
Ruthio is right with those meal shake ideas, Ffosse.
I know you donât particularly wish to put on too much weight, but how about trying protein shakes? They are not just for bodybuilders but for anyone who wants to keep themselves fit and healthy as they include so many nutrients. If you get the Diet Whey strawberry or banana mix, itâs delicious! Holland & Barrett have always got some good offers on these and if you explain what you need it for, they will show you the right variety.
If you need any advice with these mate, let me know 
I think it is better to have a little extra weight on Richard, and getting the vitamins as been said and the protein is so important. I make sure I get protein every meal, even if it is just a piece of cheeseâŠor some peanut butter.
I donât like being as thin as I am now, because I am sick and that is why I have lost so much weight. I am trying hard to put some weight back on because it is not good to be thin not getting your nutrients. Better to be a bit fatter. I take Ensure, which is a vitamin and mineral drink, but it would be somewhat like the others have mentionedâŠ
You sound happy Richard, I am so gladâŠ
Blue X
Thanks to everyone - I know those meals as Iâve had them before, they come in strawberry, vanilla and all you do is mix them with milk. Iâll be able to buy them at the chemist.
Iâve calmed down a bit from earlier and am having a quiet day. I didnât manage it to the supermarket but there is always tomorrow. I seem to be afflicted by back pain now which flares up from time to time.
Thanks, Floydy - coming from you that means a lot but I can only deal with whatâs thrown at me and at times itâs been incredibly difficult, Iâve argued more than once at my Consultantâs specialists.
And that is exactly what you should do Ffosse Consultants are not always right and gone are the days when they were gods to the likes of you and I.
My mother and older sisters would never agree with that and for a while I was under the NHS spell and believed everything I was told.
You keep fighting mate and ok perhaps arguing is the wrong word and maybe discuss is a finer way of putting it with your GPâs and Consultants.
Also always remember that if you want your GP to prescribe anything that you think maybe good for you.
Perhaps a new drug you may have heard of from a support group member or where ever you get your information from.
Then always have a word with the Consultant and explain it to him/her and if they agree with you that it may help you, then ask them to write and tell your GP what you require.
It does work believe me I have used that way so many times in the past.
Keep up the good fight mate.
Hope you are out of pain now Dreamy.
Sorry, you were not up to going out.
Iâm going back in as my temp is in the 90s, spiking towards 100 at points.
I was only saying to myself yesterday how I wish iust was possible for adults to have more control of their pyrexia system when it all goes awry. Itâs only 4 in the morning, too, must try and be positive. Just wish there was some other way of entering hospital withouut feeling that Iâll never get out.
Sorry to hear that Ffosse. They really must try harder to find out whatâs wrong with you.
Sorry to hear that Ffosse, try not to get too stressed as you will only make yourself feel worse.
Hope the doctors can find out the cause this time.
Iâd just like a break away from all this.
If Iâd had a child, Iâd have been seen in 10 minutes which is fair enough but where is the treatment for the single man? Itâs 7:20 now, a long way off from my 3:40 call and Iâve had to put up with lots, real or imagined.
Oh Dreamy I have just caught up.
I am so sorry that you have to go back to the hospital. Do keep us posted.
Richard, I think I am going to get banned today, so I just want you to know before I go, I will still be praying for you and so will others out here that I knowâŠ
Just know that I also am very ill right now and it canât be cured, I am on my way out, so if any bad happens to either of us, I will reach for your hand, and lead the wayâŠbut I pray you will be better soon, and please pray for me too, ok RichardâŠ
God be with you my friend,
Love, Blue :hug: xx
Dreamy do keep us posted.
You know how I worry. X
Well I was in last night and things felt OK - A raised bloody temperatures but none of the attendant fevers.
Iâm out of hospital tonight. They want me to keep this uncontrollable virus at normal temperatures by taking paracetamol. I donât know what to say except I feel more suicidal than ever, I canât seem to get a break. If its not my constipation itâs my sore back. If its not sleeplessness itâs nightmares and periods where I donât know what Iâm saying or doing because Iâm feverish
Iâve never had worse health ever before and at 52 I donât know how much more I can handle this.
Partly this is because I donât feel alone - there are demons in my sleep, strange people with whom I converse and yes, I know theyâre not there but that doesnât make it any easier.
Ffosse ⊠ignore the tormenting buggers.
I had them when I was in hospital. No, not the nurses.
An annoying sad woman crying her eyes out ⊠every time I drifted off she was there again, silently weeping and sobbing.
I felt bad enough without her making me feel worse but boy did she seem real.
Youâre having a crap time of it and feeling crap ⊠and aside from your physical symptoms itâs dragging your emotions this way and that with you at their mercy.
Get the TV on. The radio. A little pointless distraction will be good.