Shhh eat quietly Dreamy:-D
Glad you are home.
I asked that at the bar. But I know now that you are safe.
Safe, but on my own which I crave for awhile. Made some good contacts in hospital, though, a couple of which I hope to keep. And my friend in Oklahoma City now has face-time so Iāve been very peopled the past 10 days.
A little out of my zone but hope for the future. I crave my electric blanket come 11pm.
I still havenāt really come down.
I had to phone the hospitals dedicated haemotology line to find out which of the myriad of drugs they gave me was the steroids. This information they gave me happily. Itās an important drug as it has to be stopped but slowly, day by day.
Well, that was the best solid 8 hours sleep Iāve had in a while; I slept almost right through not needing any pain medication.
Nothing much to do today apart from finish my washing, then a trip to the vape shop and supermarket. Iāll be taking walking a little slower than usual, though.
Still not up to cooking much, today I bought brown seeded bread, some cheesy coleslaw, peanut butter, a macaroni cheese, apples, a smoothie and some camembert plus Bertolli which was on offer. Nice to get outside, though, and visit my vape shop, stock up on juice (one kind fellow in hospital was always giving me juice but hard to get hold of an usb micro-charger in there.
I didnāt feel too tired, only walked a mile, still a trifle cold here.
I canāt work the flu system on my Relenza cartridge - seems very intricate. Still, I believe it was overkill for what I needed in take home meds. Not once did I sneeze in hospital despite having to wear a mask and was glad when I was tested as flu negative.
I phoned the specialist nurse; theyāre going to try and get me in on Thursday to report the results of the biopsy and plan moving on from now.
Still a little nervous, but Iāve been fine at home. Iām actually visiting someone at the hospital today, an older chap who kept me in vape juice, just returning the favour. That plus trying to get some owed meds from the pharmacy.
I do get bogged down in details, not so good when I have panic attacks, but today seems to be well planned from my phone and computer.
I visited my friend, who is feeling better, so thatās a good thing. Got the wrong bus home and was left a 3 mile walk.
Still, I managed to walk it slowly, stopping at McDonaldās on the way; I didnāt eat too much, just a burger and coffee.
Got some nice prunes and apricots from the health food shop on the way back. It must just be me, but itās strange how the days fill up since this all started - more things to do, but plenty of time to be online which I miss if Iām too far away from it as in hospital.
On a side note - I fit perfectly into my navy-blue Leviās serge trousers (the expensive denim) which were previously a little larger than Iād likedā¦I canāt have put on too much weight, just my tendency to catastrophise and over dramatize things.
The hospital phoned me back - they want to see me on Thursday at 12 to discuss my biopsy results.
Nervousness awaits again, but this too shall pass. Theyāre really very good with follow up. It may mean I need another MRI to determine the tumourās progress or shrinkage, but they seem to be hoping for Hodgkinās again which is treatable.
All I can do is be kind to myself 'til then and give myself a little bit of a break.
Fingers crossed Ffosse!
Thanks, AnnieS
I must be prepared to accept it whether it is good or bad news.
I asked a Chinese acquaintance whether the Year of the Dog was destined to be a good year or a bad year. She said āthey are all good yearsā. I think thatās Taoāist philosophy.
Iāve just been talking to the wife of our friend who is currently receiving radio therapy treatment in the Edinburgh hospital. Richard started his treatment in the latter part of last week, but was allowed to come home for the weekend. He went back to hospital this morning and will be there all week, then home again for the weekend.
Evidently he is very impressed with the hospital. He is in a two bed room, with TV etc, he says the food is so good he thinks heāll stay there permanently.
He has treatment all this week, home at the weekend and then back for a further week, that will conclude his treatment. Further scans are not then scheduled until May. Why such a long gap I donāt know.
I am glad to hear you are feeling better Ffosse and hope when you get your news it will all be good.
Thank you, yes I do feel better and the radio therapy department excells at that hospital as does the food. I very much hope your friend gets better quickly.
Nothing quite refreshes like a bathā¦in hospital it was sit down showers, which, while they got you clean are never as nice as a bath.
Now that Iāve had my bath, Iām going to attempt a gentle walk down to our Botanics perhaps take some photos.
Itās nice outside and not cold.
Carpe diem! Iām about to take a walk, appreciating nature in all its glory.
Test results forgotten for today.
I forgot to take my phone with me and didnāt realise until halfway there; still I persisted and had a nice walk, listening to music on my watch. I guess the watch has replaced my iPod shuffle of the past.
Music? On a watch? :shock:
Good God man, I never even knew such a thing existed. 
Glad you got out for a while today too.