In what way, Ffosse? Call out a doctor mate and get to the hospital.
I hope Dreamy did call.
I will worry now.
Iāve been in hospital for 6 days now, theyāre keeping me in as I have infections as well as diaroea.
You must very fed up Dreamy.
How is your MH today?
I have been thinking and praying for you.
Sorry you added a bit more.
I hope they sort this out soon.
Nothing worse than that on top of everything.
My MH isnāt good,itās as though the totality of the situation is now hitting me.Iāve further chemo next week and I doubt theyāll let me out before then. I have my sister, though and sheās been very good in a hundred different ways, emotional and practical,
I can see a few weeks stay until the confusion, and infections are at bay. When you have diaroea like mine itās not always easy to get to the bathroom in time.
I am very glad to read that your sister is there for you.
You are in the best place for now Dreamy.
Yes, the whole realization is scary.
You will get through this with determination, you are stronger than you think.
I wouldnāt last 5 minutes outside - ive lost so much weight Iām beginning to look like a skeleton and I can hardly support myself.
Plus I was psychotic too. I kept thinking it was Christmas day and believed I could go back in time and retrieve valuable jewels and vintage watches.
I still get confused, especially at night.
I have managed to stop vaping, though.
I lost my vaper in my house a day or two before I was brought in last week and never got around to replacing it. Then,once admitted couldnāt buy a new one if Iād wanted to. So I am completely nicotine free now and donāt miss it. It was a very low dose of nicotine I was on anyway.
The strangest thing is I dont remember being admitted to hospital or what I thought once I realised where I was.
Well done on giving up Dreamy.
No, I guess you were very confused, but at least you are in the right place Dreamy. Sleep well if you can. Good Night. x
I did sleep well - I generally do in hospital. Thereās something comforting about having others around. I donāt know what Iāll do when I leave.
It occurred to me today that most of us have routines and our days are very similar whether we live alone or not.I used to like my independence, but Iāve lost that now.
I can understand that, you are thinking logically now. Being alone when you are distressed is unbearable.
Glad you slept well. X
You will need extra care if and when you go home. Think about how you would implement that Dreamy.
Perhaps someone coming round each day would be a start. I couldnāt imagine being home alone.
Yes I think that would be a good start.
Increase the care if and when you need it Dreamy.
Better that than thoughts of the hospice yet.
The hospital social worker should discuss this with you, before you are discharged.
Not a sure how this works in Scotland.
But ask. X
Today Iāve to have a blood transfusion this afternoon. Not too happy with that but they say Iām a little anaemic.
Also had 2 psychiatrists in, checking on my memory and other cognitive areas.
Yesterday I made my final donations to the Maggis centre - you can look them up. So Iāve paid out Ā£2k in donations so far and thatās money the state wonāt see. I truly believe that is the best charity I could give to.
You will feel better for the blood transfusion Dreamy.
I am guessing the psychiatric assessments were to see if you can make rational decisions.
I am glad you are happy with your donations Dreamy, as I know that is important to you.
Any decisions about discharge yet?
No, Iāll be in here for a while - better than lots of little stays.plus,Iāll have lots of chemo coming up and I think theyāll keep me in rather than have me turn up at 9pm for appointments.
I agree with that, 9 pm that is late???