Hi I’m Tim, new member. Only scraped in at 52, (baby!|) and I live in SW London in my late partner’s flat…yes I am a single widow, after 27 years and still trying to make sense of that…the last 18 months have been the worst of my life…and the world is going to hell in a handbasket too, it feels mutual!
deep breath I am queer enby trans agender gendervoid. which means I don’t really get gender. I am also probably on the neurodivergent spectrum, given how I was as a kid but have had enough nightmares with the NHS so don’t want to spend 5-7 years trying to get a diagnosis from them - their mental health services are bad anyway…I realised I wasn’t cis when I was 51 in the depths of grief, so the universe was telling me something!,
Although I had inklings before that but I didn’t feel dysphoria so had a lot of imposter syndrome around my gender…or lack of it. I feel I’ve always fell into a default mould but never totally happy being a man…it never fit. I am happy with any pronouns he/she/they whatever apart from it.
I am/was an artist by trade, former design and animator…kind of not sure where I am now, I was a YouTuber for many years doing hiking videos, I love hiking and wild camping…but stopped cos of - well you can guess. I’ve been a podcaster since 2004, one of the UK’s first, probably my only claim to fame and it doesn’t really mean anything now everyone and their dog has one?
Love music of all sorts - which I know a lot of people say like they like ‘country AND western’ but I truly mean it - I will listen to anything apart from modern jazz. My Dad was a jazz guitarist, I have trauma…but from Handel to hiphop, rock to reggae, pop to psych…I will find the odd thing I like everywhere, and the weirdest places. In fact the podcast is about music, and used to DJ for money, so that tracks.
Being drawing and painting since a kid, I’ve been trying to restart it since he died, not sucessfully, the last big painting was his coffin - I got a cardboard/MDF coffin and did my last abstract painting on it. I feel that mostly said goodbye to that part of my life…
Love home automation, trying to save money via Home Assistant and mostly successfully until world events made it all really expensive…story of my life!
Still trying to rebuild my life, I don’t know what shape it will form yet, it feels scary and weird. And very lonely? Hence reaching out…
